...what to do now?

13th, March, 2014

Sorry about there being no blog yesterday... I didn't have the best day, actually I probably had the worst day of my life. I guess you could say I went though a break up but we were never actually dating so call it what you want, tell me if you will because I don't know. He was pretty important to me and was the only thing that could make me happy and this sounds cheesy but made my heart smile; it was always like a sunny day around him. We're still friends. I think we both find it awkward at times - I know I do. I still have all my feelings for him, I'm not sure about him.
I'm pretty lost right now. Fairly upset but finding it really easy to put on a happy act. You could say in a way I'm a little depressed, not eating, not sleeping (a tiny amount of sleep), feel down and pathetic I guess. So maybe a little more than a 'little' depressed but what am I to do now? I don't know what to do, not even the slightest clue! Stay friends sure. Act happy all the time, faking it? I don't think so...
I need help from you guys. I like doing everything alone, getting through hard times but I've never experienced this before. I don't want to experience it again. I don't know what to do right now, so I'm asking you for help.
What have you done in this sort of situation???