Extended

When you do the wrong thing like me and try to sneak out and get caught, don't do another thing wring because being grounded in my case got extended. I went from being grounded for just the weekend to  having another 3 days because I got caught using a phone when I wasn't allowed... It sucks.
I guess what you should take away from this don't do the wrong thing because you don't get anything out of it.
But answer me this, if something is worth it to you; would you do it anyway? No matter how much trouble you'd get in? If it is and you don't because you're scared of getting in trouble, what does that say? You're logical or it wasn't worth it....?

Backfired plan with a back up plan

28 & 29, March 2014

Sorry there wasn't a post for Friday or Saturday but they are a combined post. To make it up to you I'll do one for then now ad another for today afterwards. sorry again for being slack and not doing them...

So my plan for Friday night was to sneak out and see my boyfriend, that backfired big time when I got busted... So instead of going anywhere I got grounded and stuck to my room. My plan didn't work but I wasn't told about the new plan. A tap on your window at night might just be tree or something if you have one right outside, but when the tapping continues the last thing you'd expect it to be is a person. So much for being grounded, I spent the night night outside..

A visit from someone you really wanted to see and spending the entire night with them makes your day or in my case morning. 

Just a tip for anyone who's going to spend the night outside, make sure you wear warm clothing and not just get out of bed in PJs... It really doesn't keep you warm at night, even if you're cuddling up with someone to keep warm. (Just keep it in mind.)

Getting a boyfriend

Terribly sorry yet again for not doing any posts the past few days but I have something good today!
Being asked out by a guy and can turn your world upside up! Haha. So yeah, you could say I'm confusing when it comes to guys. Hence my new boyfriend was my unofficial boyfriend who sort of became my unofficial ex who today became my official boyfriend. But with him being my biggest crush and a great friend (who was in fact the friend of mine who wrote my posts for me while I was away).
So my day was great and one I won't forget. But a tip for any guys, if you're gonna ask a girl out, don't tell her you're going to and then make her wait all day...

How?

So I'm in a really bad habit of not doing blog post at the moment and I'm really sorry about that.
I've got boy drama, family drama, schools getting to me and I'm just a pretty big mess. I'm figuring it out and not thinking about it much which isn't doing my for me... School work, I just need to say I can do it, do it, and get it out of the way. Family drama is more just messing with my head so that's pretty easy to work out. Boy drama, so lost it's way beyond complicated... it's a maze, I've tried drawing diagrams to try and make some sense of it but I get lost.
Who knows how to work out boy drama where you like someone and they like someone else and sorta you but the other person really likes someone all together and then everyone else get involved?! My question may not be clear after that... How do you work it out?

Happiest mood

Sorry there was no post yesterday.

One small thing can change the way your day goes. Today it was something said and I had the best day ever! You know when you're happy when you have a smile on your face and can't stop smiling because you remember what made you smile like that in the first place. I wasn't just what someone said either, I also did something myself that made me happy.
Smiling and laughing will cure anything. Don't believe it? Try it.

Hope

Last Wednesday I lost the most important thing to me; a very special guy. Letting go is hard but it should get easier after some time...I don't believe that because it's just getting harder for me. Being such close friends doesn't help and the fact I still have all my feelings for him and we still flirt; it's just not getting easier. I was just starting to become my old self when I remembered yesterday that today was one week... It's always in the back of my mind that things will never be the way they were but I can hope. Hope seems to be all I can do right now.


Do you believe this is true?

Cancelled

In college your calls can get cancelled! Today I had my fist cancelled class and that meant I could go home early. I did however miss the bus so I couldn't actually go home early by I did just get to sit around doing nothing. Would've been better with company but either way I finished early and hot the experience of having a class cancelled! It's not actually as cool as it sounds but it's fun.

Acting

I'm not entirely sure what I'm writing about these days... I'm lost. 

I'm a horrible actor. Right now everything I do or feel is an act and apparently I seem to be doing well at acting. I can't hid it at times but when you act like nothing is wrong it seems to be fairly easy. It may not be easy around certain people but it might. The worst part about acting is that it feels natural and you start to start pretending at all times. 

Acting is both good and bad. You just first have to know when to act and how to act. 

Reflection

I have had pretty much the worst week not including Monday morning. Monday morning was the best and come lunch time Monday right up to this point on Friday night, it's been the worst. Come Wednesday I started getting depression - a slight case of it, that doesn't seem to be improving...
Reflecting back on something may be the worst thing to do. (I know it is for me right now.) But when things seem to go downhill you look back on the past. It brings back both happy and sad memories and they can sometimes help you to feel better.
What do you see looking in the mirror?

...what to do now?

13th, March, 2014

Sorry about there being no blog yesterday... I didn't have the best day, actually I probably had the worst day of my life. I guess you could say I went though a break up but we were never actually dating so call it what you want, tell me if you will because I don't know. He was pretty important to me and was the only thing that could make me happy and this sounds cheesy but made my heart smile; it was always like a sunny day around him. We're still friends. I think we both find it awkward at times - I know I do. I still have all my feelings for him, I'm not sure about him.
I'm pretty lost right now. Fairly upset but finding it really easy to put on a happy act. You could say in a way I'm a little depressed, not eating, not sleeping (a tiny amount of sleep), feel down and pathetic I guess. So maybe a little more than a 'little' depressed but what am I to do now? I don't know what to do, not even the slightest clue! Stay friends sure. Act happy all the time, faking it? I don't think so...
I need help from you guys. I like doing everything alone, getting through hard times but I've never experienced this before. I don't want to experience it again. I don't know what to do right now, so I'm asking you for help.
What have you done in this sort of situation???

Emotionally unstable

No teenager is stable when it comes to emotions. The one thing I am clearly not is emotionally stable, I am the opposite. Out of no where you can mood swings or by one single thought your mood changes. Today I had a lot on my mind and it was all connected to the same topic. That made me sad and upset but I don't stay upset, I turned it all to anger and wasn't the best person or me. I ignored my friends, kept to myself and barely spoke to anyone.
If you have had a day like mine today an you know you are emotionally unstable, don't take it out on others but don't ignore them either. Just ask to be left alone because by ignoring them or taking it out on them and hurt someone more than you could ever imagine.

Canberra Day

Again today was Canberra Day. This morning I got up like last year but instead of going with family I went with a friend. They made the morning special and very different to last year. So the balloons were better last year but nothing is ever the same 2 years in a row. The whole morning was great - I did need to rest a lot because walking around for 5 hours after getting up at 5 a.m. you tend to not have a lot of energy.
If only every day could be a public holiday and every morning could be as special as this was... Maybe they'll be a next time.

Have a good trip

So now I've gotten into this habit of do a day, miss a day, do a day, miss a day... Sorry, it's a pretty bad habit... I have nothing to write about so I think I can do it the next day you see and end up forgetting and not doing it... (Bad me..)
I did do something today though! So my dads girlfriend is off to the States for the next 2 weeks. For her last day we took her morning tea. Just a small farewell thing with family. It's a work thing but she is going to Canada for the weekend so she gets a holiday. I hope she enjoys it!


 Film     08-03-2014

So today may have been the happiest day of my life. This is probably really old fashioned but, I have a film camera and I needed some film for it...and a new battery. I got both! I just need to clean the camera now. Film photography is my favourite hobby. (That comes under the hobby of photography but film is better than digital.) There aren't many camera shops around these days that sell film or film cameras, they've gone out of fashion a bit...thanks to technology...... I'm not saying technology is bad..but I am in a way.
Doing things the old fashioned way is sometimes better than the new modern way. In the older days people had fun doing things. I guess you still do, but it's a different kind..

Fun on the street

It's the end of the week, Friday. Instead of doing your homework and assignments you just want to hang out with friends; because that's what Friday nights is stereotyped as; part night. I guess Saturday is that too... If you can't go out on a Friday night and you have friends in the street, going out and playing in the street is good enough I guess. Make do with what you have around you. Anything cam be gold if you believe it's good enough.

Smart thinking...

So you may not have noticed by now, I'm not smartest person in the world or have the smartest friends. Today that is extremely correct because I got injured badly and that was technically my fault. I stood on a flying fox and ended up almost doing a 360 (I'm kidding, I just found the wire of the flying fox). I got injured but it was funny, amazed at how I stayed standing and didn't fall is something I will never know.
Don't be like me and do stupid things. But you probably will, most teenagers do.

Your greatest desire

Everyone desires something in their life. My greatest desire is to sneak out of home one night. That sounds really bad, yes because I'd actually had to break in and out. But I love the night and it is the only time I can think. It seems to set my mind free, staring up at the night sky. I do have other desires but nothing even comes close to just being free for one night.
What is your greatest desire?

Literally nothing

Sorry there was not post yesterday guys... My days are about the same now, work on this essay or that assignment and study. How great does that sound?... But now I've done 2 of 3 essays and tomorrow should have the third one almost done, then there will be more exciting things to read about. You must be getting tired of me complaining about school work...so moving on! I actually don't have anything to blog about today...which is sad because that means I had a rather boring day, of doing nothing... 

But I will say Happy Birthday to a friend of mine, now she's 16! ...and I'm still fifteen...haha. 

(I don't have the best sense of humor, thanks for putting up with it.)

Snapchat

Who has heard of snapchat? For those who haven't or don't know what it is you basically take a photo of anything and have the option of putting a caption with it. It is the same as talking but with a photo. Yes, I must say, it is pointless. You can talk more and have an actual conversation on any other talking related app. But it is nice to see someone when you talk, I'll admit that. I have come to the conclusion that snapchat is for someone to see another person while they talk and that there is no point in it what so ever. It is however a great way to get a laugh while talking to someone.
Have you got snapchat? If so, what do you think of it and what is it's purpose in your opinion?

This year guys I'm aiming for more feedback! So please feel free to share with your friends and comment bellow! Also enjoy the new season of autumn.